Just a feeling...

Things are getting worse. Not in any terribly dramatic way, but I can feel it happening. I think the butterflies in my stomach have laid eggs- and that during the past couple of months, when I've been slightly more relaxed, they have been cocooned. I'm pretty sure what I felt two days ago was a mass breakout.
Great timing too, it has to be said. Now I can be horribly unsettled when I return to work. Grrr...

A knight sits on the ground, polishing his armour ready for the next round of life. So far it has not defeated him, just pounded him into the ground with excruciating force. The only battle he's won outright in a long time is now just a by-gone victory, I would think he barely remembers what it felt like... He picks himself up, plants his feet a couple of paces apart, and unsheaths his sword...

He is brave in his own way. He had never presented me with the head of any fabled monster, but in reality, what he faces is far more daunting. I wish I understood what it meant to be a warrior of the realm. Shut in my tower, he was the only glimpse of such a world that I'd ever been exposed to.

I hope next time the butterflies decide to shake me up, he is there to see it... I would stop one in the air, and pin it to his heart, that he should wear it until they leave me...

Midsummer special!!

Yesterday was midsummers day, and it felt like it. The weather was just as it should have been, the birds were singing, and there was just enough of a breeze as to keep me from passing out.
I've been in the company of one certain knave for eight months now, and he certainly isn't making it easy for me... For the record, we are 'casually seeing each other'. This means that I'm in limbo. I have too much of him now to let go, but not enough to cling to.
He came with me and dad to the west country yesterday- and enjoyed himself, so far as I can tell... but who knows? This remarkable knight, with his many dimensions... I rather wish at times he wasn't so complex... see now, I regret saying that, for it is one thing of many that I love about him

*sigh*

Basically, what I'm trying to say is: Today is June 22nd, and I'm confused!!