'I want candy'

Do you now?

Well, diddums... because you ain't gettin' any!

Quoting MC Chris won't help you get what you want tonight. Quoting MC Chris is unlikely to ever help you get that. I feel like i'm letting you down now, though this is most definitely the right thing to do. You want things to be nice... and i'm sure they are, for you.

I have to be nice, because I am weak. I could never say no to you, dear knight. Of course you know, which is why you have these stupid terms. No longer, my dark one. From now I shall be strong enough to withstand your allure.

If our roles were reversed, you would see...

If our roles were reversed, you wouldn't give me candy either!

Despair

I don't mean to be so ultimately pathetic. It's just my nature I suppose. I read through my old posts on a regular basis, and in between teary outbursts, I hate myself for having teary outbursts. I'm trapped in a vicious circle and the one who can save me has already opted not to. So I fall... into a black pit of despair, and sob myself to sleep once again. If only there was room in this tiny fairy frame of mine, for more than one feeling at a time...

With the venomous kiss you gave me....

...

I'm sick of it now. I can't cling to you in hope of regaining what is so obviously lost. I'm killing loneliness with you, a wise man once said. Okay, so it was Ville, but he is wise-ish. And he claims to be a man. He seems to have had the right idea though, about you. I am killing loneliness- with you. And I'm not sure quite what my life would be without you. Time to find out I think.

I can't put up with people making mistakes. I can't tell one more person you are not my boyfriend or I risk being reduced to tears. I know I ought to be saying yes, and that hurts me too much to bear. Why don't you give it a shot?!

'I think I know what to do'...

No, you really don't, do you?!

You want to think you do. But whatever you think now, you won't in five minutes. I can't tell you what's right and what's wrong, I can't tell you what's smart and what's idiocy, and I've already tried giving you my opinion. It didn't make up your mind for you. Why won't you make a decision and stick to it? Just for once.

*hugs*

My powers will protect you from anything- except for yourself. Most of the damage being caused here is self inflicted, and you're not using the right methods to heal.

Content....

...

I've not been so satisfied in a year, at least. A new bond forged with the father... and men staying, for the most part, out of my way. The knave, as per usual seems distant enough to ignore for most of the the day, but close enough to correspond with come sunset.

He flickers in my periphery, like a sprite, unkeen to spend too much time in the light. The light, of course, would do him good. It is because he shuns it, he has ended up this way. He had too much hate in him for his years. A mail soiled in the blood of many... losing those dear to him. A kick in the teeth. Men in war all live to see such times, but this knight, not ready to embrace combat must march alone, without those he loved most.

I wish he would love me most... I wish he would let go of all that hate. Just for a moment. One still, perfect moment. I wish he would let his guard down.

Fate, up against your will...

In scarlet nights I saw you.
So cruelly you kissed me.
Your lips a magick world.

Why on earth must he be so present all the time? I just don't understand. I never needed anything before him, not like this. A taste of something so rich, and beautiful. Like the finest chocolate in all the world- and I can only nibble at it. But I am a chocoholic, we all know that. A nibble won't ever satisfy me, and neither will this half formed idea of niceties. Some things are more sacred to me than they are to others... I do not give my heart lightly, and a true knight of the realm would surely see, and face whatever peril that lay before them...

I know it must be killing time. Perhaps he is not a true knight of the realm. Perhaps he is a milk chocolate peanut in a box of Belgian truffles... perhaps that is the worst comparison I've ever made...