Despair

I don't mean to be so ultimately pathetic. It's just my nature I suppose. I read through my old posts on a regular basis, and in between teary outbursts, I hate myself for having teary outbursts. I'm trapped in a vicious circle and the one who can save me has already opted not to. So I fall... into a black pit of despair, and sob myself to sleep once again. If only there was room in this tiny fairy frame of mine, for more than one feeling at a time...